AKA "Do the drugs work?"
How can the lonely pass a wall of friends?
How does the empty fill a heart that sings?
How does a single moment cloud the past?
Why does my mind dwell on these things?
How dare my anger rule this week!
How dare the sadness bring me down!
How dare the bitterness taint my joy
and cause to hide behind my frown!
This world is spinning in the dark
and will continue flying into night
For what might be eternal ages
I might as well do my bit right
I can't ignore this deadened void,
this part and apart of mind unwound.
But I can learn to close the door
and keep the silken, tender feelings bound.
Or is it best to break myself?
To crack asunder broken mind,
exposing torn flesh and sinew
never sure what demons I might find?
Building up from fragile fragments
A whole made from a part of parts?
And soldering the result together
with love from my close hearts?
The whole as one or parts anew...?
In one I keep myself as me,
but risk forever being lost
The other cuts out pain, like mould,
but at what cost...?